Be in Good Health

16 December 2025

Beloved, I pray that you are enjoying good health and that all is well with you, even as your soul is getting along well.

III John 2

Thank you to everyone who checked on me these last couple of weeks, as I’ve been silent on updates. Though it is has taken a few weeks, I have found a rhythm to home therapies and am no longer having any allergic reactions.

I long to announce that my body has been healed of cancer and that I am N.E.D. (No Evidence of Disease). But that will have to wait. Instead, what I’d like to announce today is that my soul has been healed.

Months before I received the diagnosis of cancer—maybe even a year before—thoughts of Psalm 139 lingered in my mind, especially verses 23-24: “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way of everlasting.”

I know I am a child of God, a sinner saved by grace. I also know I am a product of redemption, and I am loved by God. I’ve memorized his Word. I’ve fixed it to my mind, and I do my best to follow it with my heart. I know his promises, his acts of mercy, and his redeeming grace. Yet, I have sensed a darkness—a separation from God that prevents me from drawing closer to him.

So, I prayed to the Lord: 

Dear Heavenly Father, you know me. You know the anxious thoughts that are deep within me. Please search me and test me. I know there is wickedness blocking me from seeing you fully. Help me to address it, for I want to see you and your glory more clearly. In Jesus’s name, Amen.

This kind prayer is not new to God. David proclaimed it in Psalm 139. The apostle Paul, too, wrote of his struggle with sin and sinful nature in Romans 7:20: “Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who does it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” Paul knew of this darkness—this sin that dwells in us.

Cervical cancer is not from God. Cancer is a product of a fallen and sinful world. But I did pray to the Lord to reveal wickedness in me, and he answered that prayer through my cancer diagnosis. Why answer a prayer in this way? Because God is the Great Healer, and he wants us to be healed. Psalm 103:3-5 says, “He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. He redeems me from death and crowns me with love and tender mercies. He fills my life with good things.”

So, like David and Paul, I realize that sin dwells in me through sinful nature. When we, as believers, address the sin that still binds us and repent of it, we are being sanctified more fully into the image of Christ. In turn, we see more of his glory.

The darkness and separation I felt has now been consumed by light. In my next update, I’ll share my journey of repentance that has brought healing to my soul and has drawn me closer to the Lord.

Written by Tammy Lea Fabian

Edited by Mia Atteberry